Memory

A half-grown chow hit by a car, mawled her owner's neck when she tried to pick it up.

An older woman fell backwards going up an escalator, cracked her head open and bled a small puddle which then cascaded down two steps.

A deer hit dead on by an 18 wheeler going atleast 80mph; it seemed to explode in front of me.

The darkest and most ominous rainstorm I've ever seen was on a highway in Alabama; so violent and dense, it turned the mid day into night.

The same escalator mentioned above, tore the skin off a little boy's hand because he was playing "lets see what the rubber rail can suck up next".

Fishing in a mud puddle with my brother when we were kids.

Clouds inside a valley beneath a clear blue sky.

My father whipping me until I wet my pants.

Snow in sunshine.

Memory

Dear Mr. Sir,

I am anxious tonight. Can't sleep again. I don't know why, maybe it's everything. How can Everything bother me?

I closed the store late because the customers wouldn't leave. Fussy B's in their fussy weaves. Do they really think I enjoy waiting on them? Walking about with cellphones attached to their empty melon heads. Never realizing I don't give a shit about whether or not they get that one purple sham to match their purple quilt? GET OUT!!! hags.

I went to the grocery store for to get some food and I could not decide what I wanted to eat. It all tastes the same anymore. Food is a whore, you pay money for it and it still leaves a bad taste in your mouth. Fuck Food, I will eat paste.

I actually ate half a turkey sandwich with chips and chocolate milk. mmmm. and then some plums.

There's a strange and curious word, "plums".

Maybe what I need is a change of scenery. I will spin around and see what is behind me...I have this habit of always looking ahead. I worry about tomorrow. I do not fear it, I just don't know when the day will come I meet the human who will set me off in a way I won't control. The day I just stop trying to suppress the angry-hungry.

SPGirl #3